SENIORS!!!

They say (who ever they are) that you can't go back to high school. You can never go home again. Blah, Blah, Blah.

Personally, I never want to go back to high school. It was awful. I was fat- I mean, really fat, fatter than I am now. I had tragic Sun-In hair and a fake tan. I drank waaayyy to much, and didn't have the most modest of behavior. And we were mean. Not my finest of moments.

But recently, I had the chance to "go back to high school"...so to say.

Two years ago, June 10th, 2006- to be exact. I moved to Huntsville. Left Fort Lauderdale behind and moved here, where I knew nobody, had no friends, and was able to start over. Not but a few days later, I saw that a local theatre in town was holding auditions for my all time favorite show- "The Rocky Horror Show".

Walking in, I was intimidated. Tons of people who already knew each other and so talented, I almost left. I'm glad I didn't.

Fast forward, I get cast and meet the most amazing people because of it. I made best friends, really learned alot about myself and opened myself up again. The 2006 "Rocky" was something I had never experienced before. We all instantly bonded.

Two years later, we're still friends. And we begin hearing the rumblings about them doing it again and having auditions this past Summer. I talked to alot of the Original cast to see if any of them were auditioning, a few said yes and some said that they just wanted to remember it the way it was.

I, along with 5 other Original people, were cast in the 2008 production that just closed. And I have mixed emotions about the entire experience. It nearly killed me physically. I'm still not sure I left with as many friends as I entered with. I saw alot of true colors about people I never wanted to see but did. And it all but destroyed my soon to be marriage. This show was not an ok time for Jason and I. And I was not the person that I really wanted to be during it. I'm not sure for what reason or why but I wasn't and I am still really embarrassed about it.

Now I did prove alot to myself- I can sing with the right Music director. And I can dance. Really well. And I got to know some people who I really didn't know before and I met someone who could possibly be a best friend. I saw alot- acting and singing wise- from people I knew really well that beyond impressed me and made me proud to call them a friend. And I got an awesome backstage crew for "Book of Liz" out of it.

So, was there a point to this post? Not sure yet. For me, "Rocky" is dead and buried for a while, at least. I'm sure- barring a very specific person directing- that I will never audition for this show again.

"Rocky" got me where I am now 2 years ago and now, its over. And I'm not sure how I feel about that. Some things are maybe just better left to memory.